You see this guy right here? His name is Josh Jay Jones. We have been together for a month... about. It was one awesome month! I had my birthday and so did he. So much happened between us that made is closer and closer. I thought things would work out and this relationship would last. I was so excited. 
Last Friday we went on a date and he gave me this beautiful necklace that I have been wearing everyday. That day I felt like I knew him so much better. I understood everything about him... why he did things the way he did. I learned to look past everything and love him. So that is exactly what I told him that night... that I loved him. I don't know whether it was because of those three words or it was because he realized how weird I am, but these past four days he had been avoiding me in all ways possible. It hurt more than anything I had felt in a while. I cried every night wondering what was wrong and being paranoid that this guy I had fallen in love with was about to dump me. By the 3rd night, I realized that no respectful boyfriend would treat his girlfriend this way, so I planned on breaking up with him on our one month day... this Saturday. It looks like he beat me to it... he broke up with me today over text. How lame is that?
- he said "Hey buddy i have been doing some thinking lately and i just decided that this is not working out so i think we should just be friends"
Anyway, so I do not understand why this happened. All I can do is look on the bright side of things. Of coarse I still love him and maybe I always will... because he will always be a part of me. Well, i guess this explains why I am single yet agian.... maybe it doesn't, but I just thought everyone should know what has been going on in my life since my last post. I guess I will write again after my Madrigal retreat this weekend. I would like some feedback on this whole big situation... maybe something to add to the bright side. I don't know. Bye then
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I'm so sorry hon. I really thought it would work out. You have such a bit heart. I love you and hope you know I'm always here for you.
~Heather
Hey Kendra!
I just read your blog. I am so sorry! I understand what its like to be in love (with someone named Josh) and then all of a sudden you don't have them anymore. It sucks! I still really love my Joshy, too. I know its hard, especially right now when its a huge shock to not be with them all the time all of a sudden. Things will get better. You will probably ALWAYS have feelings for Josh, you never forget your first love, but it will get better. After you've had some time to heal you'll find that there are a lot more guys out there who would love to date you, and who you would love to date. You might even discover it was a good thing that it happend when it did. But anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you. I know what its like. My situation may not be exactly what yours is like so I don't want to sound like I am all-knowing and that I have all the answers, or whatever, but I just want you to know that you have a friend who knows kind of what you are going through. I'm here for you. If you need a friend to talk to, to hang out with, or whatever....I'm here. You have my number, you know where I live. I'm not the only Lambert who considers you a friend! But anyway.......have a great day. Go eat some chocolate, that usually makes me feel better. Love ya babe! You are beautiful! :D
Love, Megan
hi kendra, long time no talk, :-P well in response to the blog on the other site: If a guy gets an "I Love You" before he himself figures out his own feelings, it will probably scare him, though not all guys will go as far as to break up the relationship for something like that, the jumpy ones might. Sorry u found a jumpy on :-( but i know that kid, u deserve better anyway
Hey hun. You're wonderful and you WILL find a guy who loves you as much as you love him. Don't give up. Come hang out with me sometime. I miss you. Tons of love!
~Heather
Hey you!
I'm sorry to hear about all of this dreadful news. I myself have realized lately, this bit of profound advice.
Guys are stupid. We are. (and guys, don't even try to protest it, I'm one of you.) It takes us a long time to overcome our stupidity, and even then there are relapses.
I know it won't mean much, but try not to get too discouraged. One day, a man kind of wakes up and says, "Hey, I have NO idea why girls like me, but they do. And BOY am I lucky for it. Maybe I can trick one into thinking I'm good enough for them when in reality, we can't come close."
Even though I haven't had too much serious dating experience, take it from me.
You're Awesome.
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