BOYS!!!

I hate them all. They all are exactly the same! They like to lead you on, make you fall in love with them, and break your heart. I have had this same experience happen to me a thousand of times. I am tired of it. All I want is for one guy to prove to me that they are not all the same. I mean... already this summer I have gone on several dates... and the process just repeats itself! I guess it is just that ever since I have ended things with Kelly 2 months ago, I have been looking for something new. I guess I am just looking too hard. Right after Youth Conference, I went on a date with a great guy named Seiya... he is half Japanese. We have so much in common. He didn't really hurt me though... because I kept myself safe on this date. In my head I just rememeberd that he is leaving on a mission in a few months... so nothing would come out of it. He is still one of my many crushes and I am very happy to have met him. But then a week ago I met a guy named Andrew at my friend Katrina's b-day party. I wish I hadn't. He broke my heart. I mean... 6 days ago he took me on the best date I had had in a while. We went hiking to the twin lakes and took pictures with eachother and the great view. I was actually happy. Then we went swimming and... he kissed me. I know I should have stopped him, but I returned the affection. I actually thought, "this might go somewhere and I might a have a boyfriend soon!" We kissed several times throughout the night... even at his house (don't worry... I kept my promise and didn't make out). I was falling in love yet again. I even liked his family. His mom was way awesome! Then I got hurt again... today. Apparently I am not good enough for his parents just because our religions are different. Why does religion matter? If 2 people like eachother than that shouldn't matter, should it? Well, I always stay friends with people who break my heart, so I hope we can still be friends. I also hope that I can not make this stupid choice again. I am now making a vow to never kiss a guy again unless we are a couple. This is because I hate the fact that everytime I kiss a guy, it is only once. I have never kissed a guy more than once. Am I really that bad? who knows. Anyway, back on topic... I am just looking for that special guy who can lift me off my feet and can care for me and love me. Sorry about all of this... I just needed to get this out.